Friday, October 26, 2007

Opening the Animal


There were moments I found true freedom

In sin. To be exact, three: my wife walking

Out of our house and into another, a place I

Only imagine because I have heard nothing

.

From her since; masturbating one morning

To a naked, forgettable girl winking at me,

It seemed, from some magazine; and this man

Butchering a cow another morning, years after.

.

Opening the animal with a soundless, falling

Motion seemed to be a holy act, a blessed

Release: the cow, heavy with more love than

Its body could contain, was freed – how it reached

.

Down towards earth; how it rejoiced in the meals

It would make; how it longed to finally become

Grass. The man learning, with each fall of his

Hand, the weight of death – how he has to give

.

And receive, eventually. Among these, I remember

The girl with the forgettable face the most. I wonder

About her spread-eagled limbs, how they made her

Look like she was falling away from herself. I wonder

.

If she has since moved on to greener pastures: how

She might be home right now, making someone

Supper. I wonder where I put her picture. But mostly

I wonder what it was she was seeing with her one

.

Closed eye, when the camera shutters flickered.

Was it a vision of her own body stretching out

And aiming for the world, and farther, into the future –

a man and a beautiful, blessed house she will never leave?

depressives, rejoice!